I did some research on procrastination, since that seems to be the "it" thing for me these days. Article after article, I read about what procrastination is and why we do it. http://www.lifehack.org/articles/lifehack/6-reasons-on-why-are-you-procrastinating.html --this is one of those articles that speaks well on procrastination. The bottom line is this: we procrastinate because we don't want to do that thing that we must do.

So, instead of studying for my finance final, which I'm most likely going to fail, I've decided to spontaneously write a poem about procrastinating. Here goes:

My finance homework will be late, late, late
I just don't want to do it, but it won't wait, wait, wait;

I hate to think that I might fail in finance
I'll have to take it again, it's not that I won't have another chance;

Laundry, dishes, playing with my daughter
All of these things are important, but I outta

Be focusing on school since it will be over soon
I'm glad I went back, but difficult classes loom

Over my head like some dark cloud waiting to rain;
Sometimes the pressure of getting everything done makes me insane

However I am so richly blessed
I'll busy myself with the rest

Of what my life involves, it's all that I wanted
Although this procrastination keeps me haunted

Thanksgiving

With tomorrow being Thanksgiving and all, I thought it would be a good idea to blog a quick list of the things I am MOST thankful for. Surely a blog list could never cover EVERYTHING I am thankful for, but a quick reference list would be great to see. Here goes:

1. GOD


2. the Bible


3. My husband, daughter and family


4. My house, cars and the fact that I have more than enough to be comfortable in life


5. I was born in the U.S. and can be whatever I want


6. I decided to go back to school to get my degree


7. All of my prayers growing up were answered, then some


8. Procrastination, although it bites me in the ass sometimes


9. My few, TRUE friends, who know me and love me for who I am


10. Humor

Well, there's my list. I just heard on the John Tesh radio show that 70-something percent of Americans are cranky due to the fact that very few are grateful each day for what they have. If everyone made a thankful list and read it regularly, I'm sure this would reduce some of the crankiness in the World.

Genetic Homosexuality

As crazy as it sounds, when I was only ten or eleven years old, I remember having an argument with my father at the dinner table one night defending homosexuals and lesbians. How I even knew anything about the subject at that age is beyond my understanding, but somehow I was convinced that hormones caused people to be gay and that those who were homosexual had no choice in their feelings. It wasn't anything that I was told, it was something I believed deep inside. I reflected on how I was attracted to other people and applied that situation to all situations of attraction to other people. Obviously I didn't choose who I was attracted to, so how could anyone else? I grew up having a deep sympathy for those who might be gay and not want to be but couldn't help it.

In my early twenties I felt a sense of calling from God asking for a more intimate relationship with Him. I began taking Bible studies at church and reading the Bible. Although none of the classes ever touched on homosexuality, the more I read the Bible and learned who God was, the more I realized how wrong I was about homosexuality growing up. It suddenly became clear to me that homosexuality was caused by something other than what was on the inside. My best guess was that the Devil created homosexuality, to trick people in to believing they were a different sexual orientation than what they were created to be.

I happened to be reading People magazine just recently, specifically an article about Candis Cayne, a transgender who was born a male but switched genders as a young adult. The interesting thing about her--or him--was that he was born with an identical twin brother who was a heterosexual male. If genetics played a part in homosexuality, then why would an identical sibling with the same genetic coding have opposite sexual orientation?

I researched on the Internet and two very interesting articles, http://www.narth.com/docs/studyseeks.html and http://www.mygenes.co.nz/Ch12.pdf explain how the most recent scientific studies have concluded that homosexuality and sexual orientation is not encoded in genetics but is more influenced by outside environmental factors, and that sexual orientation is very fluid and alterable. It also states that many homosexuals have suddenly become heterosexual, especially after certain emotional needs have begun to be met by the same sex person that might not have been being met before during times of homosexuality.

This is only more evidence to me that the Bible, although one of the oldest books in the World, is not out dated and is very relevant to scientific data still yet to be discovered. The Bible emphasizes importance on relationships with our parents of each sex, and it is now being discovered that those relationships effect how sexual orientation can change and alter what the "natural" selection should be, especially when those relationships are not healthy in the way that they could be.

I'm doing a project for my Web Wisdom class on how the media manipulates the public. The point is to discuss common tactics used on television, in magazines and in the papers to sway the reader in the direction of the author in areas of politics, social policy or government affairs.

While reading one article that I found at Wikipedia, it occurred to me that there is a fine line between manipulation and telling the truth. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Media-manipulation contains an article written by Anup Shah which repeatedly uses the U.S. Government as an example when it refers to pre-packaged media which doesn't include identifiable sources. The author states ... "A fear raised now is that people may become more suspicious of the open press."

Give me a break! If it's one thing I've discovered, it's that ALL media--news channels, radio stations, websites--have always told the story from their point of view. I never see "sourced out by Left-Wing Democratic Liberals" at the end of each CNN news cast or Internet article. What difference does it make if the U.S. Government provides news releases to public news stations without a recorded source at the end? I've rarely ever seen this happen with any network on any type of news story.

My point is that as long as the article contains the truth and doesn't intentionally twist information to manipulate the truth, the article is credible and is not a form of trickery.

What Goes Around Comes Around

When most people think of the phrase, "What Goes Around Comes Around," usually the term "Karma" comes to mind. Most people think of Karma as the natural law that presents itself in the form of justice to those who have either done good or bad in the World.

I firmly believe that Karma is really God's law doing its job. Many people wonder if whether or not God punishes those who have sinned against him, and since sinning against any human being is sinning against God, we all sin against God by doing harm to others.

In my opinion, God doesn't punish people. Simply because God has designed a law that is self-sufficient and self-sustaining. I believe that no good or bad deed goes un-punished or un-rewarded--not by God, but by the law itself. God's law is so efficient, he doesn't have to administer it, it works for itself. So everything we do comes back to us in one way or another. The law works naturally so that we all get back what we do whether positive or negative.

I'm not saying that God doesn't intentionally cause things to happen--I feel that He has a hand in everything and any time He wants to step in to do something, He certainly does. What I'm saying is that His law is sufficient in the way that he doesn't have to punish us, we punish ourselves with His natural law of justice.


To search subjects in the Bible regarding sin and the punishment that goes with it, refer to www.bible.com .

The Devil in the Media

Ever since I saw Mike Huckabee on television a year ago and realized HE needed to be our next U.S. President, I never gave up the dream that he could be.

The more I read and listen to talk radio in my car, the closer I learn the dream is becoming a reality. This guy is the only one actually PROMOTING the Fair Tax Law, which would totally demolish the IRS and all income and production taxes completely. His beliefs and morals testify his entire life of 50 or so years, not just a flip flop in the past few months to gain popularity. Visit http://mikehuckabee.com/ for more info on Mike.

What I can't believe is how the media, such as CNN, is manipulating the polls by purposely leaving him out of articles and news briefs mentioning "popular candidates." Not only that, but CNN is actually printing articles speaking for Christian Conservatives, stating that we don't know who we're voting for, Giuliani or Romney. HELLO! I noticed Huckabee a year ago, and all I hear Conservatives call in about on my two talk radios is Huckabee! Yet, the media want to make it appear that Huckabee doesn't have a chance, and if we don't have a plan, isolate the options to the top two Republican in their eyes. I almost fainted when I watched the Presidential debate last week and the one question that Huckabee was asked--not about social policy, war, welfare, taxes--but if he believed in Evolution as it was "stated in the Bible." What does that have to do with the earlier mentioned top social issues governing the country? And his simple, honest answer wasn't enough for the moderator--no, the moderator had to keep going back asking specifically, "Did it happen in six days like the Bible says?" I'm sorry, but what a numnnut!! In my opinion the MODERATOR was the biggest idiot of them all. And that's saying a lot since Hillary Clinton was in the room.

I was pleased to hear the applause from the audience after Mike FINISHED the question :) You can view this response on video to the right under the You Tube column at this blog.

Hereditary Prejudices

Okay, so my Web Wisdom and Design teacher has assigned us this project to create a blog, post ten times in two weeks, then have people read it and leave comments. I can see that people are reading, but so far I've only accomplished one comment. Do people really have time to do this for someone? Or is it the topics I'm choosing to write about?

I thought I would do something socially conscious and write about things which I've discovered offer me an easier way to understanding what life is all about. I never thought that I could be offending anyone. Am I?

All I can think about today is my life thus far. You know how you go through life visualizing and daydreaming about what it's going to be like when you grow up? Well that life never will exist for you, only reality.

The reality for me is, although I am completely happy and satisfied that I went back to school to finish my degree, it hasn't been easy. I was 24 when I went back and having dreamed all my life of being a mother, I couldn't possibly put off having a child until I was finished school, which would have been anywhere from 5 to 10 years later since I had to work full time as well. A good friend that I worked with who was in her forties and had already had all of her children advised me not to go back to school, that I would just quit. Great advice, I thought to myself--tell someone you care about not to try to go for your dreams because you'll just quit. What kind of a friend was that?

I never thought back to her advice until about six months ago when it suddenly became so much more difficult to go to school, work full time, be a wife and mother to our now three year old, take care of our home, etc. that all I could hear were her echoes in my ear "you're not going to do it, trust me; having a child and school? You'll quit!!!"

But I have to admit that those are the very words that keep me going. And, of course, I can only think of the exact words of Albert Einstein when he said ...

"Great spirits have always found violent opposition from mediocrities. The latter cannot understand it when a man does not thoughtlessly submit to hereditary prejudices but honestly and courageously uses his intelligence."

It is important for me to state that I don't necessarily agree with everything that Albert Einstein had to say in his life. Like all of us, Albert wasn't perfect either and some of what he said was very isolated and limited in knowledge and wasn't a complete thought, in my opinion. But many, like the one above, was so rich in knowledge, simple yet so expandable, that I have to remember his brain during life's struggles. If it's one thing I can testify to, my entire life has been one hereditary prejudice experience. All my life people have underestimated my ability and intelligence, challenging my intellect at every level. It's not that I'm smarter than anyone else, but there's something about me that makes people think I'm not as there intellectually as I really am. And the first 21 years of my life I really did believe what everyone thought, until I began to use my brain ...

I still have to remind myself regularly that people don't really understand or know me inside and to ignore what comments they make or things that I hear. 99% of what people perceive of others really has to do with themselves anyway. It's not something I ever get used to, I have to go back and re-remind myself over and over. I know that if I let those things begin to creep back in to my persona I will begin to limit myself again. And by limiting, I'll only miss out in life.

Beauty of Jesus

When asked if he believed in the historical evidence of Jesus, Albert Einstein replies:

"Unquestionably. No one can read the Gospels without feeling the actual presence
of Jesus. His personality pulsates in every word. No myth is filled with such
life. How different, for instance, is the impression which we receive from an
account of legendary heroes of antiquity like Theseus. Theseus and other heroes
of his type lack the authentic vitality of Jesus."

"No man," Einstein replied, "can deny the fact that Jesus existed, nor that his
sayings are beautiful. Even if some them have been said before, no one has
expressed them so divinely as he."

(both quotes taken from http://www.einsteinandreligion.com/einsteinonjesus.html)

Albert's words have summed up my reasons for continuing to read and believe the Bible word for word. The very beauty and heightened intellectual value in the content of the Bible is so far above anything else ever written or stated in the World forces a person to see it for what it is. What is it that those people who can't understand or see the same thing miss???

Are You Doing Your Job?

What is it about this country that makes everyone so busy, we don't realize that it's important how we spend our money as well as our time? We're so busy wrapped up in our jobs, the day-to-day details of life and material things, we don't realize that we were born with a job to do which does not include money (unless we're giving it away!)

At any moment, you are going to die. Not even your own body will go with you. Houses, cars, clothes, careers--none of those things will travel with you. Yet we spend our entire lives building those things up. For what???

No doubt you will be forced to look back on your life to see what purpose you served while you were here. And more than likely, the number one issue will be how you effected people's lives emotionally, not materially. And everyone knows we don't have the choice of reversing time to un-do and re-do what we wished we would have done while we were here.

The last words out of Albert Einstein on his death bed were, "I've done my job." Obviously he was comfortably reassured when he exited his life on Earth. How sure can you be?

Hundreds of thousands of people die every day, yet so many people are not asking themselves these same questions. Why not?

Discovering Life

Probably the most interesting thing about life is there is still so much left to know, so much left undiscovered. As humans we are born in to this World being told the power is in our hands, that we are capable of anything, and to take credit for our accomplishments. But do our accomplishments really belong to us to take credit for?

Another lie we believe is that SO MUCH has been discovered and that we've come so far. The truth is that we have not come as far as we think, and that everything we think we know, we really do not know. The World is so much bigger than people think. Because we grow up believing the World is ours for the taking. But it's really not.

Can you really tell yourself the World just happened, and that nothing created it? And still believe that? The more you learn about our planet, the more you realize the complexity of it all and the way it all works so well together, could never just "happen" on its own.

Albert Einstein said some pretty amazing things during his lifetime of scientific discoveries. One of my favorite quotes ... "My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind." You can go to http://rescomp.stanford.edu/~cheshire/EinsteinQuotes.html to view more of Albert's quotes on science, religion and philosophy. Albert Einstein never took stake in any of what he discovered, because our discoveries are things we stumble upon which have been waiting for eons of ages to be seen. Albert Einstein seems to have known more than people recognize him for. He was a genius in many ways and humbled in the way we humans were created and meant to be in the first place. Unfortunately not very many of us can say that we are humbled in that way. Not being so only hinders us from knowing more than ever.