Luke 15:11

I received a letter in the mail last Monday, from a friend of my old boss. She stated that God had been heavily putting things on her heart regarding his anger for our country. She sent a letter to Congress, and forwarded copies to everyone in her address book, which included me. The letter detailed prophetic predictions straight from the Bible, and included details on an upcoming attack in mid-May of this year. As I read the words on the page, I began to cry and God told me I must make copies of the letter and mail to everyone in my address book. Then I began to pray for our children's protection and the protection of those in this World who are helpless and lost without fault. At the end of the letter, Kim, the author, urged congress to ask God to reveal the truth to them with regards to her letter. "Pray, open your Bible, and pray .... it doesn't matter where you turn in the Bible--you don't have to go to a specific place ... He speaks to you no matter where you are in the Bible ..."

While in the shower that night, a feeling of unworthiness swept over me. I thought the past few years that I was sure I was getting in to Heaven--but what about all the things I had done, and how far I still had left to go as a Christian? Now I was not so sure I was going to Heaven, and I may be in the biggest trouble when the Lord does come back. I began comparing myself to other "better" Christians I knew--and I felt so unworthy for any just cause the Father may have for me when he comes back.

When I got out of the shower I opened my Bible to wear I left off in my daily (supposed to be daily, but are not always daily) readings. It was Luke 15:11 "Jesus Tells the Parable of the Lost Son" where Jesus explained the story of the Father and two sons. The younger son had asked the father to give him his share of the estate. After receiving it, the son took off to a distant country and squandered his money and ended up starving and poor. He returned home begging his father to take him in as he had nothing left, upon which the Father threw a big celebration honoring his return. The older son, very disappointed, questioned the father, after he responded so positively to the son's obvious poor decisions. The older son stayed and "never disobeyed his orders." The father responded with, "My son, you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found."

Kim was right when she said God will tell you what He has to say no matter what part of the Bible you are reading. After feelings of such unworthiness, God was assuring me that no matter where I came from or what I did, I was no longer lost and dead as I had once been. And that was all that mattered.